no time no time

Work is so draining.
but if i were to dissect the matter, I think the emotional roller coaster my lifestyle is bringing me through is just..
so motherfucking tiring.

i can feel helpless and pushed to my limit to about 450%
and feel totally angry and pushed-over the next.
How can i stop letting myself become a push-over?
someone tell me.

I do not have a life.
nowadays I’d rather use my free time sleeping.
as mentioned earlier,
I’m ridiculously tired

I need a break.

is it really still surprising,
after so many surprises.
geez

WTF

WHAT IN THE WORLD IS UP WITH BRITNEY’S TWEET?!?!?!?

seriously, wtf?

Ever felt like,
you just need someone to shower you with affection,
and it doesnt necessarily have to come with the whole package? i.e. no emotions involved, no commitment, no love…
perhaps you just want that night of attention, on you and only you, from just that someone.
and you want it not because you need it,
not because you’re in love with that someone or anything close to that for the matter.

you just. want it. for the sake of it.
because in your books,
its a novelty.

BORED AT WORK

me: LOL I just remembered how you got fucking smashed at my bday last yr hahahahahahahah
nesh: hahahah stop thinking about me all day everyday.. I have enough on my plate now, hannah. i hope you understand
me: HAHAHAH. cause im doing writeups on getting drunk and vomiting. You just happen to be the epitome please stop flattering yourself. haha
nesh: HAHAHAHAHA fuck u bitch

Procrastination kicked me in the butt today

it could have been special.
and you KNOW IT

it’s like all of a sudden im bombarded with a truckload of opportunities.
I dont even know where to begin, what to apply/go for.
the best part ?
all of them have absolutely NOTHING to do with my diploma. nice…..

shit I’m growing up way too fast.
I wanna continue and go back to school after my internship, but at the same time…
I dont.

temper

i have a veery bad temper, especially when it comes to the ones i love most.

whenever i snap at them,
literally, within 2 seconds… I just feel like, damn… Im sorry, i hope you know that i dont mean it

supper

if it were a normal night I’d probably be out,
my bedtime would be in approximately 7 hours(the time I’d be awake tomorrow, getting ready for work),
and if it were any ordinary night I’d be having indian muslim food for supper.

but now a new kinda ordinary has squeezed its way into all our lives.

work today was much better.
besides the fact that i did not eat AT ALL..
(okay i did, but two pathetic sausages at 10AM doesnt really count)
anyway, the thought of the canteen food just turned me off.. alternative methods of losing weight too. HAHA. look at the picture above, i look so skinny its like, not even funny anymore. AHAHAHAHAHA

-.-
life is boring. nesh and i realised that the only thing that excites us these days are hypothetical situations…
they either, will not happen… or will take YEARS to actually materialise.FML

PS.mel is sooooo smart congrats on your sickeningly awwesome GPA . LOVE !

There are only two ways to live your life.
One is as though nothing is a miracle.
The other is as though everything is a miracle.
Albert Einstein